I am scared for my future. Again.
I am scared like hell for my future again.
Why do I happen only on employers, who are bent to screw me over? We had the time of the year, when minimum wage is raised. I made the mistake of asking about mandatory vacation, because I love my family, but they have to deal with it unless they want fine for not giving it to their employee. Result? Boss took it personally. Like, freekisly personally and instead accused me of being money swindler and he can’t believe I would stoop so low to swindle extra money for my trip. FYI – I have that trip planned for months, thus I collected it together myself. Won’t allow me to go nuts, but will be enough to get me through. Then he came out that maybe he wouldn’t give me the vacation, have I asked him about it? As if talking with the rest of the crew, including my direct boss hasn’t already fixed the dates with me? Excuse me?
The thing with mandatory vacation is that I have to take it and they are obligated to give it. The fines for not filling the law are quite harsh and well, I would rather have the paperwork in order rather than face the fine. Because I’m sure he’ll turn it on me too.
So instead of dealing with the issue when he could avoid this whole mess for the future, he went over with raising the pay. Also mandatory as my current one would be below minimum set by state. And what did he do? Oh yes, I see the raise. It’s exactly the same above the new minimum. I don’t know what to say, after explaining my other boss how this will keep me below that minimum the state considers enough to count my work year as full index for the pension.
You see, the state has been so “kind” as to not spread the panic around how it doesn’t count your work years fully if you are on minimum wage, because you don’t contribute to the society enough it seems. It’s in fact 1/3 of the year, so if you worked for 30 years before pension, it only counts as if you’ve worked 10 of it. Which in total will give you absolute minimum pension. If that doesn’t make you scared as hell considering there will probably be nothing left from the pension fonds as they are so keen to invest them, despite being mandatory, it is not even grim future, it’s the sort of future that makes you consider suicide.
Oh, and what was the creme pop on the dart? He told us that as family, if necessary rises, he keeps the democratic right to lower or not pay out our salaries. And now I’ve been in constant state of panic since yesterday, because I feel like I’m back to that food spot, where she kept us from signing real contracts and payed us under the table when she could, but often enough we got nothing past pennies. For those, who can’t read between the lines – my boss just told me how he will decide every month despite how much I work if he “can” pay me my this month’s salary or if he’s gonna keep it back because he currently “can not”.
In plain speak, that means he’s gonna be judging everything I do and decide based on that if I am worthy for my paycheck. As he has been angry over the past month, because I ordered 5 dollars worth of toy stuff from Ebay, accusing me of having shopping fever, that means if I do anything he does not like, or have any conflict, he can suddenly decide it is democratic not to give me my salary as punishment. And I can’t go anywhere without being pretty much disowned for it, because that would be ultimate betrayal of his fragile ego! Who cares it’s against the law, right? I can’t report it without being disowned.
I am fucking scared! I wanted to go back to university, have driver’s license, pay off my loans as much as I could and now he tells me I have to pretty much keep backup for loan payments on my card so I wouldn’t find myself in the black list! And education myself? Pf! Forget it! I most likely end on a street if I ask for anything of THAT sort! Even if I’d find the money, but going there would be from the time I should be working for him.
ALL THAT BECAUSE I ASKED HIM TO CHECK OVER THE VACATIONS, BECAUSE I DON’T WANT MY FAMILY REPEATIN THE MISTAKE THAT FOOD JOINT WOMAN DID! For fuck’s sake!
Oh god, I’m back in that fucking place, where she wouldn’t pay me a dime, but expected me to show up the next day and I wanna puke. How the fuck did I end up trusting my own family? Because he has no boundaries, when it comes screwing over his own kids, because, hah!, for being his kids!